Being stuck.

You know how they say.. Life changes in an instant, when you’re least anticipating..they’re right.

I wonder if my life would have been any diff if, two years from now I had decided to come back home. Would I have been ‘diseased’ like I am now. Would I have had a better relationship with my friends, although some of them are definitely better. Would i have been so close to my parents. And most of all would I have known how much I miss the daily grind of a normal life.

My life in the last two years has come to a complete halt. While everyone around me is living their life. Getting married, getting promoted, moving on in their career, travelling, doing what they love. I feel stuck.

Its not that big a deal. I know. Life will move ahead. I know that too. Things will definitely look up even. But what if I’m too late in catching up with the rest of the world. What if ,when I get married or get going in my career or go travelling places like I had always planned on, ppl will just shrug and say ‘oh been there done that’.

That there, is my biggest fear. That I will be prehistoric when I’m only a 20 something.

Like someone said to me – ‘you’ve had to grow too fast too soon in the last two years.’
Maybe I should slow down the growing process and do what ppl my age do. Just live life instead of worrying where it is going.

Yup, that’s what I’m going to do.

Or I could become a saint and start preaching the art of patience.



1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Prakriti Dayal
    Sep 24, 2013 @ 16:42:56

    A heartfelt and well written piece babes!
    So finally you did pick up the pen(literally speaking, typed it, but still!) and put ur thoughts down!

    All i’d say to this is, i get what you feel…and also that babe while ur out there thinking everyone’s living their lives, they’re battling their own demons.. i’m not comparing anyone’s troubles, but yes, like i once said “Compared to others, my life does seem better or worse in ways only i know or can comprehend..”
    You’ve had your share of the worst times possible, which have made you the person you are today…and true, no one can walk your shoes to know what it was, or still is, like… but you’ve demonstrated an inner strength and re-discovered yourself and the people around, in a light that you wouldn’t have known existed… As for you being pre-historic, babe life for most people begins post 40-50! we’re still 20-something! and no one can judge or shrug you away, coz everyone has their own limitations… you’re meant to soar, and you will… i’m sure you realize that…

    Cheers to you and your never-say-die-spirit! ❤ We love you! Muaaaahhh!


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